2012 on Seventh Avenue

2012door1Having been remiss from this particular arena of the cybersphere for a while, all I can say is that I’ve been observing what seems to be a lot of chaos around me and I’ve been trying to sort it all out.

It seems of late, a lot of my friends have begun thinking about 2012. These are not the flaky, tree hugging types. The most practical and down-to-earth among them are feeling “something” is in the air. They watch  Doomsday Specials on the History Channel and call me during the commercials. “Is this true, Clare? What does it mean?” Since I have spent most of my life cavorting in the playgrounds of the fringe, they figure my odd-ball-ity might come in handy given the unusual nature of the times we find ourselves in.

The 2012 story is big (and complicated) that’s for sure. From my study and sources, we’ve already entered it; the change is in process. Climate instability, natural disasters, jobs and homes in all kinds of crisis, and then of course, the unnatural disasters wrought upon us by our growing corporate fascism*; it’s easier to be afraid now than ever. And of course we’re encouraged to stay fearful on every front – since everything we used to depend on is crumbling beneath us. Things aren’t like they used to be that’s for sure.

2012 as The Interruption
No one wants their status quo interrupted, but everyone I know seems to feel that their status quo IS being interrupted. “Leave us alone with our toasters” Howard Beale said in Network years ago. Right. We don’t want to worry that the drug the doctor prescribed cites “death” as a possible side effect; we don’t want our fish to be suffocating with petroleum in the oceans; we don’t want to bee population to die off because Monsanto won’t stop selling a new pesticide but they’re counting on the fact that we’ll act like it isn’t happening.

“It’s overwhelming” my Fashion executive friend says. “We’re seeing corporate control of the news, the medical establishment, agriculture, privacy infringement under the guise of “safety”– corporations and government are having wild sex with each other. But their not even doing it behind closed doors anymore; they don’t care if you see who’s screwing who. They’re doing it in hi-def RGB 5 foot flat screens, right in our living room!”

Her company just merged with another mammoth and lately they’ve been having a lot of big meetings with HR, to “acclimate” them all to new management goals. She said these meetings are pretty Orwellian. “It’s like they were trying to convince us that if we don’t appreciate the changes, we’re against our own success. The increased demands are ‘good for our team’. But our jobs are almost impossible to do now. Quality control is even more difficult, staff cuts means we average a 60 hour work week; no raises for 3 years now but we still they tell us we need to feel “personally” accountable for our company’s growth. It’s like they are trying to hypnotize us into thinking what they’re saying makes sense, but it clearly doesn’t.”

“And what can we do,” she said. “No one wants to say that they think we are on a sinking ship. No one in the meeting said these new goals are unrealistic; no one asked any questions about what they were being told. Everyone’s afraid of losing their job.”

My own honesty has booted me from a variety of communities, so I am fully aware of the consequences of telling the truth. How far do you go? In some places, you can get yourself killed for asking a question. Giordano Bruno was burned at the stake for questioning the Pope. (He pointed out that the sun did NOT revolve around the earth). And while the world has come to agree that burning anyone at the stake is an unacceptable response to differing opinion, I agree it’s uncomfortable to question the Powers-That-Be.

Looking for Answers When We Should Be Looking for Questions
Even in that claustrophobic conference room, if only one question was asked that pointed to corporate hypocrisy – that question would have been the only thing that anyone would have remembered about the meeting. It would have been the talk at the water coolers for weeks.

My friend continued. “Of course it makes no difference if anyone really said what they were thinking. The company would just keep on doing what they were doing and it wouldn’t have made a difference anyway”.

Not the kind of difference you see right away, that’s true. But simply by asking “the” question you have created a disturbance in their apparent control of the situation. (How about asking if the emperor is naked!). For a minute, the spell is broken for everyone in the room. Perhaps not as satisfying as rioting in the cafeteria or dramatically handing in your resignation, but don’t underestimate the impact. You’ve just opened a door for someone else, maybe for some other meeting, at some other time. And with one painstakingly small question at a time, whether you’re an HR Manager or a cab driver, these deceptively insignificant moments will add up, making it more difficult for the hypnosis to continue en masse. And considering how little they care about our “status quo”, ending the trance would be an improvement!

The Real Meaning of 2012
So the experience of my well- placed corporate buddy led me to understand what I believe is the real meaning of 2012:  We’ve been looking for answers when we should be looking for questions. The biggest disasters are assured if we remain asleep, accepting what we’re being told as though it were the way it “must be” and the way it always is. Answers are overrated and constantly changing anyway; it’s the question that has always driven our progress.

The asking connects the best part of all of us invisibly; it’s a way of sticking together. As every day brings us closer to Dec 21, 2012,  your voice in the conference room could be the start of something really good for the rest of us. 2012 isn’t the end of anything, except our deepest need to be deceived.

* http://www.informationclearinghouse.info/article7260.htm

Saving Yourself

savior-art1Recently, I saw a very long interview with Jordon Maxwell, the amazing symbol researcher, author and journalist. Whether you agree with him or not, he’s certainly got volumes to say about “what’s really going on” underneath the controlled media news, in every area, from politics to religion. One of the first alternative researchers of this genre (he’s been doing this for 40 years) many others have followed his footsteps and hold him in the highest regard. The interview I saw was for a conference held by The Camelot Project, so you can look them up if you’re so inclined. I’ve heard him speak many times before (on stations like Coast to Coast AM) but this was longer, more relaxed.  At the very end of the interview, he was asked “do you think we can be saved?” and he responded: “No, I don’t think the human race can be saved”.

Someone else might think this is a pretty hopeless thing to say (especially as a last point of a long interview), but not me. I thought it was a great choice of language. It actually inspired me. What if we didn’t have to be saved anymore? What if we could save ourselves? That would really change everything. It would be a totally new way of looking at who we are.

Whether Maxwell is right or wrong, being “saved” has much more than religious or spiritual meaning. The whole notion of having to be bailed out suggests you remain powerless, insignificant, “less than”. It holds you to a position of needing someone or something that you do not presently have and apparently could never get on your own. Being saved means you can’t do anything BUT mess up – “see that’s why we have to save you!” And that’s not to say we don’t mess up a lot; so we tell each other “Well, what did you expect? See, you can’t do it, it never works” etc.

The bad stuff is certainly true…we still kill each other over money and belief systems…we still reward exploitation and carelessness of our planetary resources (an on and on) but that is simply not ALL of it. We ALSO have done wonderful things, made wonderful things and had wonderful realizations along the way.

Our assumptions about “human nature” are generally discouraging; we say being human is well, being mistaken, being wrong, that it’s “natural” to make a mess of things, and we tend to stop there.  And if you are saying to yourself “well, that’s the way it IS” you don’t get it the point at all.

Yes, we have been sad, weak, selfish, greedy creatures but we have also been inventive, sharing, curious, strong, smart, brave, creative creatures and we forget this so easily. Perhaps if we were more curious about what makes us tick; if we asked more questions instead of hiding behind what someone else told us; if we felt more self-responsibility and less inclination to point the finger at someone else…maybe we wouldn’t be so convinced that we needed someone else to bail us out of this mess. On a molecular level, we are made up of the same stuff as stars, lest you forget.

I predict that 2010 may just be the time we found out how amazing we really can be. Maybe we’ll be forced to, as our as our “rulers” stumble through their mess of lies and bad management, but this could be the year we wake up the sleeping superhero within us all. Personally, I’m counting on it.

Sometimes You Have to Write Your Own Recommendation Letter

A designer I know told me he just finished writing a recommendation for himself. My first thought was that this was really sad. Then he told me the story, and it sounds like one of the many things that go wrong in the world of commerce.

For the past 19 years, he’s been working for a non-profit organization. After years of dedicated work, working at discount since they were NON-PROFIT, he wanted some kind of non-monetary payback. He was retiring on a couple of fronts, scaling back. Not that what they paid him was very significant either, but yes, they did pay him some money. To him, the recommendation would be worth more than money and I understood that. No names here because it’s a big organization that seems at least to be trying to make the world a better place.

So he asked for this letter of recommendation, and after nine months of a runaround, even after writing a bulleted point letter to several Board members to make the writing super easy for them, he didn’t get one. So he wrote it himself, put it on their letterhead and asked one of the Board members to sign it. They did, since it was nothing but the truth but it made me think (since I work with non- profits) so what makes them better to work for anyway? And does this happen more often than I think it does?

Do non-profits hide behind their “good will” and are they basically as inept and insensitive to the help they get as the bad corporate profiteer? I’m thinking NO because they start out with a greater cause in mind and I believe in business with a greater cause. Bottom line is just not enough. You can see where that’s got us all. The bottom is sinking out of the floor these days.

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